The Missing Heartbeat
"I'm depressed and angry," I had said. "I see what is happening," he said. He held me close as the sobs came and tears rolled down my face. "This is the first time you've had a chance to sit and be still to think about it. It's finally hitting you." "I'm a good mom!!" I sobbed. "Why do my babies keep getting taken from me??" He held me tightly as I shook with sobs. "They don't," he said. "It seems that way. The first instance was someone with an agenda. This second was just something that happened. It wasn't meant to be right now." The man with the beautiful heart had proposed on 2/22/19. We married on 3/9/19 because, well, why wait? We found out that we were pregnant on 5/1/19. On 5/9/19 we found out that we were 6 weeks, 6 days pregnant, having conceived sometime in early April. And on 5/22/19 we found out that our excitement was to be contained. The heartbeat we had excitedly se...